Death of the Narrator

Do you ever stop to listen to your thoughts? If you do, you’ll notice that other than occasional functional, creative or investigative thought, the thinking mind has three full time jobs: It reflects on the past, it projects the future or it comments on the present. Waking up, at least for me, was the instant […]

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What is This Form For?

With the dissolution of the dream self four months ago, I woke up to the shocking realization I’d spent a lifetime with an undiagnosed case of mistaken identity. Like someone with amnesia, in place of true nature, there was a construct called Lori-Ann, a fabrication that suffered from the push away and pull toward pleasures […]

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Enlightenment Smarties

Two nights after I woke up from the daydream of reality, I had a night dream. In it, I was eating a colorful treat from my childhood called “Smarties,” little round disks of candy-coated chocolate. A month later I understand the meaning of this symbolic dream. When all the clutter of a mind preoccupied with […]

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It’s So Damn Quiet In Here

Here is my first report: It is so damn quiet in here. More than three weeks ago, thoughts ceased. Well, ninety percent of them, anyway. What remain are functional thoughts: Turn the steering wheel, buy more milk, walk the dog. What has departed is the endless busy chattering of the thinking mind that I now […]

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Holey Moley, I’m Awake!

I woke up three weeks ago. I don’t mean I woke up in the morning, though I did that too. I mean I woke up from the dreamer of reality into the dreamless self. “Behold your dreamless being, awake my child, awake!” I read those words almost thirty years ago in the book called Autobiography […]

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