Why We are Not Ready for the Full Bodied Truth of Awakening (and Crucify Those Who Tell It)


  The Myth: Awakening is a shift of perception, a mental-emotional acrobatic that leaves one refreshingly peaceful and delightfully uninvested in personal identity, but that has no impact whatsoever on the physical body. The Truth: Awakening is a radical of shift of identity that leaves one refreshingly peaceful and delightfully uninvested in personal identity, but that […]

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Riders on the Storm: Finding the Hidden Gift in Chaos


Every now and then life twists and turns with all the grace of a roller coaster half off the rails. Things feel perilous, unpredictable and wobbly. And that’s just your life. Never mind the recent uptick in conflict simmering in geo-political hot spots like the Ukraine, the middle-east and riot-ridden Ferguson, Missouri. Add to this, […]

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When You’re Okay and Everyone Else is Not


My healthy, athletic 60-year-old husband had a stroke four days ago. He collapsed while visiting his elderly parents in a a small town at least an eight hour drive from Vancouver–as the story goes, he stood up from the sofa to head toward the dining room for dinner and felt dizzy. Next thing he knew he […]

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Why I Have a Spiritual Teacher Post Awakening


  — Disclaimer: While at the time this was written statements in this article were true for me, I’ve since discovered a ‘guru’ can also be a reason to hide from my own inner-teacher and truth. The slippery slope of enchantment in another (no different in many ways to falling in love) leads inexorably to […]

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The Awakened Beauty


This Space emptied of him, her, this and that, deleted of doing and wiped clean of what ifs and should haves, this place of thundering silence is refuge. Here I fall freely into the mystery, surrendered to the velocity of Truth. You see, the dream of me has lost its enchantment and sober among the drunken […]

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God 101: Don’t Forget to Start and Stop.


When you are so quiet you feel like you are deep underwater, deeply removed from the noisy world above, it can’t stay that way. Like a swimmer, you surface. October, 2011 an awakening to true nature smashed the walls of the self I imagined myself to be, and with tidal wave force turned my reality […]

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My Sex Obsession & My Lust for God


When self-proclaimed teachers and students of enlightenment say to me,  “Why are you so obsessed with sexuality, you can’t be awake if that is the case,” I think: Really? I think first off, why is a curious, playful, engaged stance toward sexuality an obsession? And why is it not inclusive of God and the light […]

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