You keep hearing that the whole point of awakening is the end of suffering because the self that suffers is seen as a character in the dream, not the real you. I’ve said it myself in early post-awakening articles and even today, it’s being said repeatedly by non dual teachers.
Just this morning I read an eloquent Facebook post by non-dual teacher Joan Tollifson who declared that “Whenever there is a coming home, or a waking up, to the simplicity of Just This—minus the thought-sense of identity as “me,” minus the psychological self with its endless problems that can never be fixed—when there is simply this awaring presence and this present happening, without interpretations or storylines or the “me” at the center of it, then suddenly there is no problem anymore.”
And this is true. But what if this problem-free sense of just-this is a only an initial phase of awakening? What if this sudden or gradual freedom from that nagging feeling that there is something wrong with reality is a passage way rather than a destination?
Because it’s been my journey that the end of suffering is not an entry point into a permanent state of bland witnessing or super-chill of acceptance. Yes, at first, post awakening, the utter relief of waking up from that poor-me dream character feels like the best vacation from your mind you could imagine. It’s that biblical offer from Jesus, “Come to me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.” made real.
Yet, once you are on the restful vacation from your fictional self, you find that over time, a new state of being begins to infiltrate your days. Wonderment is the best word I have found so far to describe it, but it’s tinged with elements of delight, hope, trust and mirth.
Wonderment arises from the simple awareness that everything is happening with an intricate and eloquent perfection that is impersonal and deeply personal. That even the seeming chaos and calamity that arises in the midst of flow and ease, is right and intelligent.
It’s not the mental construct that “every thing happens for a reason,” which is a kind of soother or pacifier for the fictional self having a bad dream moment.
Rather, it’s the actual deep heart knowing of that truth and the delightful evidence gathering for it as your reality begins to become super-saturated by mind-blowing synchronicity, uncanny timing, hyper-prescience and an increasing sense of being both the wind and the sail.
I call this state of being, “wired for magic.”
And it’s not a preoccupation with non-ordinary gifts in the way the pre-awakened mind will latch on to specialness, claiming the magic as mine. It’s a kind of dance with the magic that is already here, and has always been here. It’s a post-awakening refinement of perception that simply allows you to at last see this magic that you are a part of.
To be clear. You can delight in this perception of magic while also going through a hard time — illness, loss, grief, depression, financial stress and more, all co-exist with this wired-for-magic state of being.
A friend and teacher, Jerry Freeman, often posts on Facebook vignettes of his simple life with his dog Max that are filled with struggle, but infused with his perception of the magic that is always available. Not surprisingly, his tales of synchronicity and divine timing (in the midst of ordinary life) are hugely popular. We intuit that the dry “just this” claims of non-dual teachers like Tony Parsons, might be but a partial truth. Deep down we know that reality is not the monochromatic “just this” but the brightly colored “all this” of magic.
Rumi had the same perception, which is why his poetry is so alive with wonderment and delight. “Observe the wonders as they occur around you. Don’t claim them. Feel the artistry moving through you.”
So, if you think you have arrived at your awakening destination because you are resting in “just this” I offer you the possibility there is “just this with a slice of magic.” But don’t take my word for it. Instead, pay attention to those synchronicity clues, to the angel feathers at your feet, to the perfectly timed meetings of chance, to the way you are being guided and the way you guide reality.
You are pure magic moving in divine synchrony. When you know this to be true, not only does suffering end but delight begins.
Or as Rumi puts it, “Stop acting so small. You are the universe in ecstatic motion.”
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